thoughts (that are slightly random)

it’s so weird finding out what you like, and then really knowing what you like. you know, blog designs, clothes, music, food, whatever. sometimes, you don’t know. but then you just see it - everything you ever dreamed of. and you know - “that - that right there. that’s it.” i love choices. seeing enough of something that you actually have to choose between things. example - clothes. actually finding a store where mostly everything they have you love, and you just think “DUDE I WANT TO BUY THIS WHOLE STORE RIGHT NOW!!” other times, you walk in, you think, “that’s okay,” but there’s nothing really that catches your eye. or like music. you hear lots of music, think, “hey that’s not terribly boring,” where other times you’re just like, “man, i love this song!” or blog designs. i love looking at people’s blog designs. it’s like admiring great paintings. as for the food? you got me. i still have no idea what’s my fave. (i’m guessing chocolate doesn’t count as a food group...)

one of my favorite things about being a photography - cough cough owning a nice camera cough cough - is that it really shows me how great things are. sometimes i see things with just my own eyes that i wish that i capture on the camera. something completely ordinary that suddenly looks beautiful. it happens at strange and random times - holding a pencil, staring up through the leaves of a tree, sitting in a seat. and i think, “that’s just beautiful.”

i’ve been kind of - kind of - wrestling with stories lately. everyone always says, “write what you know,” (sometimes i really wonder who first said that...) but i can’t help but think that the things that i know about aren’t very interesting. i don’t know. i guess that’s partly why i love writing about magical worlds. because no one’s ever been to one, so you can’t write about it because you “know” it. you can just let your imagination run free, and you won’t be rewriting history or something. but, you know, i’m kind of trying to find the happy medium between writing in things that i do know about - extensively - and things that i want to explore. should be an interesting journey.

i hate feeling out of my element. i realize that’s obvious, but i really do. i hate it when i go into something not feeling prepared and not knowing what i’m doing. it’s like having this insane fear that can’t be calmed and you just want to run screaming and jump into a hole and pull a house over you. (well...) and you what else is kind of hard? being the new person. being in a place where everyone else knows what they’re doing, and you don’t. i think if a new person ever comes into my life and doesn’t know about something that i know a lot about, i’m going to help them out. but for now, i’m going to trust God that He’s going to get me through whatever situation that i feel totally out of my element in.

by the way... Happy Late Thanksgiving! :) you know, i thought about doing a Thanksgiving post, but then i was so busy - especially on the day of - that i didn’t really get around to it. hopefully, when it comes, i’ll be able to get in a Christmas post, eh?

gotta go!
be a hero,
anna