thoughts (that are slightly random)


it’s so weird finding out what you like, and then really knowing what you like. you know, blog designs, clothes, music, food, whatever. sometimes, you don’t know. but then you just see it - everything you ever dreamed of. and you know - “that - that right there. that’s it.” i love choices. seeing enough of something that you actually have to choose between things. example - clothes. actually finding a store where mostly everything they have you love, and you just think “DUDE I WANT TO BUY THIS WHOLE STORE RIGHT NOW!!” other times, you walk in, you think, “that’s okay,” but there’s nothing really that catches your eye. or like music. you hear lots of music, think, “hey that’s not terribly boring,” where other times you’re just like, “man, i love this song!” or blog designs. i love looking at people’s blog designs. it’s like admiring great paintings. as for the food? you got me. i still have no idea what’s my fave. (i’m guessing chocolate doesn’t count as a food group...)

one of my favorite things about being a photography - cough cough owning a nice camera cough cough - is that it really shows me how great things are. sometimes i see things with just my own eyes that i wish that i capture on the camera. something completely ordinary that suddenly looks beautiful. it happens at strange and random times - holding a pencil, staring up through the leaves of a tree, sitting in a seat. and i think, “that’s just beautiful.”

i’ve been kind of - kind of - wrestling with stories lately. everyone always says, “write what you know,” (sometimes i really wonder who first said that...) but i can’t help but think that the things that i know about aren’t very interesting. i don’t know. i guess that’s partly why i love writing about magical worlds. because no one’s ever been to one, so you can’t write about it because you “know” it. you can just let your imagination run free, and you won’t be rewriting history or something. but, you know, i’m kind of trying to find the happy medium between writing in things that i do know about - extensively - and things that i want to explore. should be an interesting journey.

i hate feeling out of my element. i realize that’s obvious, but i really do. i hate it when i go into something not feeling prepared and not knowing what i’m doing. it’s like having this insane fear that can’t be calmed and you just want to run screaming and jump into a hole and pull a house over you. (well...) and you what else is kind of hard? being the new person. being in a place where everyone else knows what they’re doing, and you don’t. i think if a new person ever comes into my life and doesn’t know about something that i know a lot about, i’m going to help them out. but for now, i’m going to trust God that He’s going to get me through whatever situation that i feel totally out of my element in.

by the way... Happy Late Thanksgiving! :) you know, i thought about doing a Thanksgiving post, but then i was so busy - especially on the day of - that i didn’t really get around to it. hopefully, when it comes, i’ll be able to get in a Christmas post, eh?

gotta go!
be a hero,
anna

20 comments:

  1. your thoughts are lovely dear:)

    Happy thanksgiving!

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    1. Thanks, Faith! :)

      Happy Thanksgiving! :)

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  2. I know that feeling of loving something or just thinking it's alright. And as for writing, well I reckon you should write your fantasies. Write a story around one of those perfect scenarios you see in your head sometimes. Maybe your perfect scenario involves going to a magical land that's undiscovered? Maybe it could occur in your school?

    -M
    The Life of Little Me

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    1. I agree. :) Thanks for the advice, M! :)

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  3. I envy your talent, Anna.
    You're not just a beautiful writer, but an amazing photographer!! Lovely post <3

    - Jordan Sky

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  4. I haven't read your blog in way too long! Your writing keeps my interest and really gets me in the heart the way you explain things so perfectly - especially feelings.
    I totally understand about writing. I've tried writing what I know, and it never worked or helped me. But if you write about a fantastical world, you can still add what you know - God! And your personality comes out in the characters you create - though you may not see it. And: "Writers don't write from experience, although many are hesitant to admit that they don't...If you wrote from experience, you'd get maybe one book, maybe three poems. Writers write from empathy." ~Nikki Giovanni
    And yes, I completely get the whole 'feeling out of your element' situations. They're so difficult. Just be who you are and leave the consequences to God ;)
    Okay, long comment...your posts really make me think more than usual!

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    1. Thanks so much for the advice, Livvie :)

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  5. I love Once. The person who acts out Rumpelstiltskin does a lovely job. Do you have a favorite? My is Bella. I hope you get to season 4 with Elsa. Loving your blog, Anna. X
    - June

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    1. I'm glad you like it. I stopped watching it because of some of the content.

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  6. Hey Anna!
    Haha, I've been discovering a lot about myself lately, and it's so strange when you suddenly see how much it makes sense that you like (or dislike!) that thing!
    Ugh, I too hate not knowing. That's one of the hardest times in which we need to trust God, but it's so very difficult.
    I'm sorry you're having difficulty writing! Haha, I know, who even came up with all those things that everyone just says as if they're fact? Anyway, I've been working on a story idea lately, it seems a little too much like Anne of Green Gables right now, but I expect it'll develop over time. :)
    Christina

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  7. Once Upon a Time is soooo good!! Can't say any more or I'll spoil it!

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    1. Hope you enjoy! I ended up stopping watching it because of the content.

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  8. Oh, Anna I LOVE your new blog design....LOVE IT!
    It's amazing but then your skills shouldn't surprise me you've been working on blog designs and code a lot harder than me :)

    I can only imagine I would like to own a nice camera someday too, my sister Rachel has one that she bought before she married and when she got it I originally didn't care but I find myself more and more wishing I had a good camera, so I could stop having to use my iPod :/

    Anyways keep posting :)
    Your Friend
    Sarah

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    1. Aw, thanks! :) (Strangely enough, I'm now thinking about changing it lol ;))

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  9. I love this post so much, Anna. I don't even know what to say about it, I just adored it! :)

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  10. pretty picture!
    check out my blog @celiaboldizar.blogspot.com

    http://celiaboldizar.blogspot.com/?zx=5124f363ae3f546c

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