sometimes i just feel like i'm falling apart

why do i feel like i'm just falling apart?

like i can't do anything, right from the start?

why do i feel like i fail at everything i try?

why couldn't i believe i could soar to the sky?

why can't i have the hopes and dreams that you possess,

instead of being stuck here, unless,

you don't even care about what happens to me,

your own future is only what you see.

you don't care if i live or die

if i smile or if i cry

you don't care what happens to me

it's you--that's the key

why do i feel like i'm just fall apart?

i just want to get away, our ways part,

is all of this just my fault, or not?

you act like you hate me, but your face i sought,

i wanted to hear you say the words, to see your eyes,

to see if i could break through your guise

that clouds everyone else's thoughts

but not mine--i'm just full of complicated knots

i'm a confusing mess of emotions and feelings

and you just act like i'm some sort of dealing

you don't act even like i'm real

but guess what--this is the real deal

why do i feel like i'm just falling apart?

i don't even know where to start

my thoughts and feelings are a confused mess

it's filling me with depression and stress

i'm trying to work it out, but it's not easy

i'm just telling the truth, not being cheesy

i'm asking God for the strength to seek

so that that person can finally speak

and tell me why they treat me this way

instead of being battered, day after day

i'm going to do it

do it now

so i can get rid of this feeling

this feeling that i'm unloved

that i can't do anything

just get rid of the feeling

that i'm falling apart

I'm not falling apart anymore.

But I was.

Thank you, Lord. <3