wanderlust

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flying

sailing

across the waters

away from home

away from anything

i've ever known

flying

sailing

across the big blue sea

i turn forward

what's ahead of me?

i don't know

flying

sailing

on a ship

on an adventure

i glanced over my shoulder back at the shore, trying to see her among the others gathered to see us and other ships off. i could barely make out her dark brown hair as she stood on top of one of the many crates on the dock. she jumped to see, and i could see her beautiful brown eyes frowning on concentration. i smiled at the sight. "why do i have to leave her?" i asked myself, my smile fading. i was leaving everything i'd ever known. anyone i'd ever known. just to satisfy that hunger that i could understand as one word.

wanderlust.

i don't know what's ahead of me

i can't see in the future

but i feel in my heart

that this is the right path

as we pull away

sailing across the sea

our sails shining white

in the blazing afternoon sun

leaving everything i've ever known

anyone i've ever known

and her

the one i love

i ponder why i have done such a thing as leaving her. we were going to be wed. but then why must i leave? why must i go away from her, for these several months up ahead? why? i glanced back over to the shore. now she can see me. now she smiles, waves happily. there is no anger in her face. her eyes say that one sentence that she first told me when i said i had to go--"i will wait for you." i smiled sadly at the thought. would i come back for her? why did this thing, this longing, plague me?

wanderlust.

the sails catch the wind

we're skimming across the waves

the crowd cheers

waves happily

she smiles

i smile back

we're sailing farther

farther from the shore

i'm happy

but sad

i don't know what to feel

i'm leaving

this is my dream

but what if this

isn't what was supposed to be?

i realize, suddenly, that she has done for me is real love--the kind of love that could wait for forever and still be true. and i realize that she knows, too, that i must get this out of me, otherwise i will never be content. and i realize that that is the real selfless love. and suddenly i realize, too, that this is what i am supposed to do; go on this journey. that when i come back, i will be more prepared for this life that i had before planned. and i realize that everything is going to be alright, and that even if i never see her here on earth, i will see her again in a Better Place, for we both Believe in Him who created us. and i realize... yes. yes, i don't have to feel anything but good. and i realize everything is good. and i smile. for the longing in my heart is getting satisfied.

wanderlust.

we fly away from the shore

fly away from anything i've ever known

i smile

i throw back my head

and i laugh

and i turn towards the front of the ship

and lean into the wind

and breath the free air

and realize

yes

this is right

the longing will be satisfied

the heart tug will be gone

i will be free

free from this wanderlust

and i smile

Well, hiya there. This is a scheduled post, written on August 2nd, 2013. For August 3rd, of course. Unfortunately, I will be unable to personally write a post then. So here ya go. Hope you enjoyed. Thanks for reading. <3

P.S. Warning on the song--it starts going all opera on you around 30 minutes. Be warned. ;)